it seems I've been found out! (Or have I? I have no idea!) Ah, well. That's fine. I'll still continue writing as if you don't know xD
Today is the year anniversary of my granddad's death. I didn't spend the day incredibly upset, or weepy, or particularly depressed. I actually slept quite a lot, and Agent Coulson kept me company :3
My granddad was an amazing part of my life, and a wonderful man. But he was in so, so much pain before he passed away. I can only be happy that he's in a better place now, if there is such a thing. I can believe in an afterlife if only for a wonderful place for him to spend his time nowadays working on cloud-cars and wearing his Jesus hats.
It really has taken me the entire year to work through this grief and move to acceptance.
I use that, even though the context is different. I send him love and light when I think of him, then I drop it. I don't dwell, I don't let myself become depressed. I think of his voice and a happy memory, and keep living.
I don't need to spend another three months mired in depression and god knows what else. It's okay.
Agent Coulson helped me today. He came and curled up on my lap and we took a nap together.
It was lovely.
Hope you're doing well, and acclimating well to China!
Love,
Roo
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